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 MARITZA IS COOL, AND AMAZING. SHE ROCKS , SHES THE BEST PERSON IN THE WORLD <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

WHYYYYYYYYY ?

why are people so perfect ? Iam not talking of being pretty and havenig the perfect body, or people with alot of cloth and money Iam talking of the perfect people who are smart good in sports or just simply have a weird talent. I mean I have nothing ! I love playing basketball but I aint good at it, I love volleyball and soccer but I aint good at it either, I love to sing but iam also not good at it. I have no weird talent and iam  not even close to being smart. I feel so out of at. Iam not saying I want to be perfect I just wish I could just be good at something to just simply make y parents proud, To just have friends/family who tell me good job or your so good, just something, I never get stuff like that on the other hand my brother ALWAYS always gets that, Yeah, Iam proud and happy that he is super good at soccer but my dad and mom completly ignore me and alawya jump into my brother all they talk about is how good he is at soccer and how smart he is at math. I feel left out. They also always talk of how he learned english way better and faster than I did. That breaks me, I mean I try I so hard for someone to once say that, But it just cant seem to happen. I just wat to be good in something or just make someone feel happy and proud of me .

MY BESTFRIEND NEFTALI IS AMAZING!

So, Hi my name is Maritza, I'm writing about Neftali Jatzel Flores Gonzales known as Tali , yeah I love that girl .❤ We used to hate eachother back in Middle School, but later on we became bestfriends. It's not a typical friendship that any girl claims to have. My friendship with this girl is different, unique ,we're more like sisters. We fight and protect eachother .My life would be boring without her, honestly. My family has met her family , her family has met mine. My family loves her, because she's no stuck-up, and pretends to be someone who she isn't. I just tell her , we should hang out, and she never lags on me, and is willing to do anything to make me happy, and not see me sad . I wouldn't trade her for anyone else in this cruel world! ❤

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Something I like about myself

Something I like about myself. I actually dont like ANYTHING about me, But if I had to chooose I would choose my eyes . My eyes are grey-is everyone sees them blue thou .___. They may look blue but they are grey ! I hate when people confuse them. Anyways I pretty much Love my eyes they are so unique and perfect c: I just love them They also go with my skin color, I think . . . lol
Something else I like about myself is my hair . It red and really red ! I just love it, I feel like it puts everyhting together like my eyes, freckles, and my whiteness lol.
This are the ONLY things I like about myself.

 Hunter geurink is the most perfect guy standing on  planet earth ! Not is he only adorable but He makes youtube videos & is really good at soccer! Iam obssessed with this kid ever since I saw him <3 His killer smile with them dimples drives me crazy /.\ and braces, God damn does braces UUUFF There so perfect on him .His hiar is to die for, he got that bieber look kinda hair its just puts everyhting together . His eyes are so very perfect there brown but there is something about them that is out of this planet, They are sooo shine and stuff uuiiiii ;* This is like my dream guy . <3

Forgive and forget

        I dated this guy for a year . On and off but it was a year . We meant everything for eachother (thats what I thought) I loved that kid so much, I couldnt seem to get enought of him . We had ALOT of fights but we always managed to get throught them like a couple . The kid meant everyhting to me at the time , But after a while the loved faded away, the fight we had were dead serious, we would call us bad names, and stop talking for a long time I could see we were fadeing away . If he told me I love you butterflyes wouldnt come to my stomach , The feeling just wasnt the same . We would always have this little "breaks", But On november 7th the day of our annevarsity we had  a BIG fight It was really sad ! Mostly because it was the day of our one year anniversity & his birthday I had thought I did something wrong so I send him the biggest lettter ever saying  how much iam sorry and happy birthday and happy one year anniversity He onyl replaid with "I dont think I want to be with you anymore" I felt like my life was over I was dead I didnt even know what to do. One week later I heard he allready had a girlfriend I broke down . Its like 'us' never ment anything to him ! Time past from when I found that out and he messaged me saying I looked gorgeous, I could have been like Fuck you go away But instead I said thank you , after that He started being all mean messageing me really mean stuff, I didnt know what was going on with him because I hadnt talked to him ever since we broke up wich was 2 months ago. I answerd mad cussing him out, He started saying more mean shit I just decided to block him. Time passed & I was happy I had forgoten about him.But then he comes along on twitter talking more crap saying that I never meant shit to him and that our relationship was just bullcrap . I cryed and cryed but while crying I still talked crap to him, I couldnt be mean i dont know why But I couldnt, But I guess he could because he was talking ALOT of crap! It got me really down, and he saw it did . he felt like he was the bug guy in the picture but really he was just makeing a fool of himself, He looked pathetic ! I mean If he was soo over me he wouldnt even be talking to me and he would be happy with his girlfriend ! Long story short Its so wierd how you can go from loving a person SO MUCH  to HATEING them SO MUCH. It  sucks and I wouldnt like to say I hate someone I use to love but feeling chaange and people change the onyl thing that dosent change are the memories but memories, memories are the past and You just want to look to your future !
    Forgive and forget is what Iam telling myself . Forgive his mistake and all the crap he ever said It hurts and youll always have that pain in your heart no matter how much time passes, or happy things happen youll always remebeer the pain.So just forgive and try and forget. FORGIVE AND FORGET .